Winds of Change

Lately, I've been very much aware of a higher energy guiding me through life. Everything I do, say and hear seems to lead to more growth. If I didn't already hold firm to my belief that we're all part of something much larger than our lives on earth, I'd be awfully tripped out by this phenomenon. As it is, though, I know that this heightened awareness means change is a comin'. I really feel like I need to take advantage of my connection right now, follow every hunch, pay attention to all of life's details, so I don't miss any signs meant to guide me on a new path. Because that's what I've been seeking for a while now; a new path.

I think we all go through periods of our life when we feel like we've completed what we were meant to do in that given period and we get this innate sense that it's time to move on. Some of us take notice of these signs and some choose to ignore them and end up stuck in a rut. I'm certainly struck with that sense right now, and I'm going to side step the rut. A new acquaintance said today that he's like a snake shedding its skin. I find that a perfect analogy for where I'm at right now. The skin serves a purpose for the snake for only so long, much like situations only serve people for relatively small periods of time. If you keep doing the same thing over and over, you start to lose your sense of self. Precious details become blurred, your senses numb and you shift into a state of auto-pilot. That's when you know you need to shed your "skin" and start looking for change. Otherwise, your whole world is likely to turn black and white.

Where the universe is taking me right now, I don't know, but I know it's going to involve something much more creative than what corporate America has been feeding me. With that said, and despite all the frustration I've expressed in past blogs about my current job, it certainly has taught me a lot. I've learned heaps about business, what makes less creative folks tick and most importantly, a lot about what I don't want to be doing. You see, I'm the type that has to learn things the hard way. I'm rarely able to look at a situation and know for certain that it's not a good fit for me. No, no. That would be far to easy. I like to jump right in and experience the good and the bad, regardless of warnings. It may make for a longer road to my dream space, but I'm beginning to learn that all the obstacles and victories along the way are helping build a solid foundation for who I am, and who I will be. Jason Lee's character in Vanilla Sky says something like "The sweet wouldn't be half so sweet without the sour." I didn't really get it at the time, but that's one of the most pure truths in life. You can still enjoy life without experiencing some pain and difficulty, but you've got nothing to compare your happiness to. If you've never known anything but the sweet that has to temper your sense of satisfaction. If you've bought the ticket and taken the ride, experienced the ups and downs of life's roller coaster, you can look back on the ride feeling satisfied that you've really lived.

I'll hold back on rambling on any longer as I've got to catch up on the day's sports highlights and finish the last 100 pages of Hells Angels, but I will say that I'm looking forward to the next section of my roller coaster, the next chapter of my book or the next act of my film. Call it what you will. I know I'll be a better man by the time the next wind of change blows through.

TWF